She's not the only girl in universe but she's the only one that matters

Someday i may how much i care about her and how amazing she really was and when that day comes, she is already walking with the guy who already knew... Right now the only thing that im really sure about is that i love you, sometimes i want you to be involved in every single thing i do, when i laugh i want you to smile , when im hurt i want you to be concerned and when someone hugs me, i want you to push them away and hug me instead but i know all these things are impossible right now... cause as for now, i never crossed ur mind. Yesterday when u return me my ipad, u never smile, talked or even looked at me... Its as if we were strangers, we dunno each other.. i felt really really sad and hopeless, like suddenly all i can feel was sadness... i couldnt smile nor laugh, its like the world just ended for me again, the feeling sucks to the core... Today u came into sportslink to celebrate mothers day with ur mum, i was so happy to see you, u looked so sweet and pretty, another side of u i didnt get to see.. why didnt i opened my eyes earlier, why does it have to be this way... 


You took pictures with him and uploaded it and even changed ur DP, i knew sooner or later this is gonna happen, i just hope i wun break down so easily... Soon its gonna pictures of him kissing you and u kissing him...I hope he really treats u better the best u ever met... Explaining why i love you is like explaining the taste of water.... impossible. You brought colours into my life, now with you gone, my life has become black and white..Its hard to find good in someone when u already found the best in someone else.

SO sweet baby!!! 

I don't think you will ever love me again...

  

I LOVE YOU FOR LIFE, A GIRL LIKE YOU IS       

IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND, IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND <3

Dreams, that's where i have to go to see your beautiful face i stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio and realize that he treats you better than i ever did... he is the better man, he is the man that can make you happy... How do i mend a broken heart? My entire world has fallen apart, How do i find hope in a brand new day? When the one i love has gone away....You are the first girl to completely destroy me, but u will never know it...Now its back to the way we started, strangers, i love you and its killing me, the pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.. i dun think anyone can destroy me the way you did... i love you..


Yesterday you went back home so late, with him.. i saw u at the interchange, saw you took the bus with him back, bus 358.. i dunno why i suddenly feel sour inside and my emotions totally took over control of me.. i couldnt do anything. I feel so empty inside so lonely so alone... 

I DONT CARE HOW FUCKED UP THIS LIFE IS AS LONG AS I CAN LIVE IT WITH YOU

I''ll be here for you...

In my dreams, we're still together 
 

Yesterday i saw you at downtown east with your parents and ur sis! i was so happy ! finally got to see you! i smile and said hi to you, the way u looked at me suddenly made me feel like we are strangers and you do not know me... i was sad the whole night, i tried to sleep without texting you ... its impossible! yesterday you also told me u and allan were together for quite sometime... that totally made me feel like shit.. i dunno how to express that feeling i felt.. Today, allan dedicated his 7000th tweet to you and said you were his one and onli and also photoperfectoo, im already dead, i can never be the same Eugene anymore... i really really wanna love you my whole life... there will be no body else... You want me to act like we never kissed, you want me to forget, pretend we have never met, i tried and tried but i havent yet, you walk by and i fall to pieces...


i always tell myself true love never dies, it only gets stronger by time... my love for you is true, i swear to you that it will only get stronger day by day, no matter what happens, although it hurts to see you with him, holding hands, hugging, kissing... i cant imagine it... I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW...


Darkness in the night, i'll find the light for you, as long as i got eyes, i'll have a sight for you, as long as im alive baby i'll die for you... wish i could keep you much longer...wish i could just stop by and lay by ur side...

Today i just died...

 PLEASE STAY IN MY LIFE...



I NEVER WANT TO BE WITH ANYONE ELSE OTHER THEN YOU...

 CORIN NEO YUAN QI, YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON I CAN NEVER LET GO... BABY I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS... <3

 I"LL LOVE YOU FOREVER,
I"LL LIKE YOU FOR ALWAYS,
AS LONG AS IM LIVING,
MY BABY YOU'LL BE...

 EVERY OF THESE MOMENTS SPENT WITH YOU IS LIKE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DREAM COME TRUE...

Today just sucks alot, i fucking swear! im dying day by day i dunno how can u do this... i text you and asked if u are together with allan already there is no reply... you haven't been replying me at all... you really dunno how much u have hurt me... CORIN NEO YUAN QI i love you alot.. why cant i get another chance, just one more chance... i keep telling myself that i dun stand a chance and i should fucking move on, but why cant i do it... this feeling sucks and i dun think u will understand how sad im feeling, crying while typing this... baby is it really to late to do anything already? do u really not have any more feelings for me? I cant move damm i just cant and dunno how!!! Teach me will you, teach me... can u at least treat me like a friend? really nothing more then a friend... i swear i will do anything for you... i really really miss you, do u know how pain that feels!!!!! crying isnt gonna bring you back to me but i just cant control the tears... u dunno how many times just seeing ur tweets make me cry... i know im acting very pathetic here, its gonna make u angry if u ever see this but i have no where else to vent everything... i can feel that u have forgotten me...



 i never once fulfill all of it at once... im so so sorry baby.... 

Never stopped bleeding

Miss holding you in  my arms again...
<|3

what hurts the most more then losing you, is knowing that your're not fighting to keep me ... Breaking up with you is like having the worst nightmare after the best dream in my life.No one can understand the pain when you look into the eyes of the person you love, and she looked away. i need to get over her  , it has seriously been too long,i bet i never once crossed her mind ever, i wish i could tell her how much she means to me and how much i really need her in my life, how i will always go back to her no matter what... i missed the way u looked at me... i wish i could give you my pain just for a while, not to hurt u but rather so you can finally understand how much it hurts me. Asking myself, how do someone ever stopped texting a person when the person he wants to text is the person he misses the most... i kept on wanting to text you, but i just know i will never get a reply, i kept on wondering where are you but i kinda get the feeling you're in his arms...There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you... When i broke up, my whole identity is shattered i am no longer alive and no longer the man i used to be... The hardest part about dreaming is to wake up and know that im living in reality not my dream...

I wanna be something you'll miss

I LOVE YOU BABY <3

It sucks not having you in my life like you once was. I never expected any of this to happen but it did, all it took was a couple of weeks for me to know that i wanted to be with you. Now that i don’t have you anymore it breaks my heart. I try my best not to think of you but somehow my mind finds a way to bring up thoughts about you. I try to pretend like Im alright just being friends with you which i am but then again i want more than that. I miss calling you at night and hearing your voice or just saying those sweet things just to see you smile with those dimples. But i guess time will tell if we ever get back together. Im hoping we do but i kinda already know the answer. i hate how we never got our chance to see how things could have turn out, i hate how im not over you, yet im trying to pretend i am... Remember i told you i love you? i fucking mean it! we were picture perfect but i tore it all apart, i wish u could give me a chance baby, we could still be a collage... im trying to tell myself not to miss you so much but i remembered what it feels like beside you and i cried... This weather is awesome for many couples to cuddle and go out together... i always ask myself why, why did i not cherish her when i had her, why does it have to turn out this way... i really really miss you, will we ever meet again? will i ever hear ur voice? It’s honestly true, you never know what you have till its gone. So if you don’t fight for what you want.. You’ll lose it and when you finally realize it, it’ll be to late.


Just received a text from you, you dunno how happy i am! 12:35pm although its nothing much but you texted me first! i so miss you! hope ur keeping warm! the weather is so so unpredictable! i wish there will be more times like this! I love you no matter what may happen in life, i promise to be there for you... I want to be able to hold you in my arms again and kiss you a bunch of times, i want to go to the beach and splash around in the water like idiots, i want you to hold me tight and kiss me, i want to go back to where everything was perfect and when we were fallin so deeply in love, i want to cuddle with you and tell you how much i love you, i want to go back when we didn’t fight or argue,i want to go back to when we used to always going out without any destination just each others company,i want to go back to when you used to always tell me i can do it if i can, and when you always tried to make me smile, i want to go back to when we used to hang and have so much fun together,i want to be able to hold your hand again and know that your mine and you’re here to stay,i want you back in my life for good but the key word here is I WANT...

You matter so much to me, you have no idea

They say the hardest thing to do is seeing the person u love loving someone else... This is me, watching you loving another guy, hugging him like u used to hug me... him giving u flowers and being the sweetest guy to u ever... Baby, u're the first girl in my life that i ever gave flowers to and the onli girl i ever cried so much for... i will never love another girl like u ever, cause ur the onli one thats in my heart. i remembered the first time i ever saw u with ur big lovely eyes that sparkled in the light, you took the air that im breathing and stole my heart, it just happened and we fell apart, you left me with this broken heart and broken hearts dun just fade away...


You taught me how to trust, how to love i spend my year trusting and loving you and now im broken, u left when u said you would be my wife... have kids together, we thought about our future together and now its just me myself and i ALONE! You were my dream then my reality and now just a memory... Its just wrong saying love me too, cause i know u will never do... 


i keep holding on to this something that i know will never happen because somewhere deep down inside of me, i still have this little piece of hope that someday just maybe someday it will... Its hard to wait around for something you know that might not happen, but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want...


i want you to smile but i know u smile because of him not me...